Better Nap Time today & Better eating habits for me!

I am in this crazy cycle. I am nervous about the gestational diabetes 1 hour test coming up next month so I bake. Then I eat what I bake which of course is junk (mostly with sugar) and then I feel bad or feel that I will give myself GD if I continue to eat this way. Yesterday I ate so much crap it's unbelievable. I don't think I did this with my first pregnancy to this extent so I'm nervous about that too (in regards to the test). Today I had a plan and I've stuck to it. I saw a flour-less cake I really wanted to make but I read a saying last night HALT and determined that out of (hunger, anger, loneliness and tired) I was just bored and didn't make it. I can do this - I can eat healthy and enjoy a 'treat' now and then until the test. I don't need full blown days/weeks of crap eating.

As for P's nap - today was great! She went down at her normal time and slept for almost 3 hours - yay! We played with her puzzles and relaxed with one of her shows right before her nap which probably helped. Yesterday I was too busy shoving junk down my throat - blah! Gosh I don't know what I will do if I don't pass this test and there is over a month until I take it and I'm already in a tizzy about it.

Not napping!

My little girl (soon to be 2) has been not napping more and more. I've had a terrible time since she was born adjusting my schedule around hers and every time I think I worked something out it changed. I've resorted to just letting her sit up in her crib and cry. Is that so wrong of me? I just want some time to get a workout in because I know once the next baby comes (in a few months) it will be impossible for me to workout during the day and my husband and I will have to figure out who works out in the morning and who works out at night. For now, is it so bad to just want a little me time!? She cried/fussed/played for two hours but wouldn't you know the second I was about to give up and just go get her she is quiet - ahhh she fell asleep. She has been in a bad mood all day and I'm wondering if her teeth are moving again.

On another note, I was going back to eating well today and blew it before noon. I made peanut butter cookies (you know the kind you just throw peanut butter, sugar and and egg in a bowl, mix & bake?) then I ate about 6 of them. I felt guilty so I threw the rest down the garbage disposal. I put P to bed, called a friend (which was nice to talk her) for 20 minutes, I did an express workout since I wasted some of my workout time on the phone then what did I do? I came upstairs and ate pizza, cheez-its and ice cream - ugh! Tomorrow will be better (I keep saying that I know!)  but I have to get my act together. Yes, I am suppose to gain weight while pregnant but not from junk plus the glucose test is coming up - I need to pull it together!

I'm a very scheduled person. I plan things and over-plan them. For example on a perfect morning things run like this: Computer time until 7:30, breakfast for myself until 8 and brush my teeth right after, 8 make lunch for J then once he goes to work it's time to make P breakfast and then clean up. If things don't work out this way J doesn't get a lunch on time then is frustrated that I didn't tell him to make his own lunch or P is yelling for a cracker because the poor kid is starving. Lucky for me J gets P up and dressed in the morning - it really helps!

Today's frustration was about the napping but she is sleeping now so I have some "me" time afterall! :)